Gotta get my sanity back.
 

Ok some of you know I am going through mild alzheimers ,but I am fighting it PIOtold me about Nitiva or cold pressed coconut oil so I did a lot of research and ordered some has a good following and doctors secretly endorse it,Fda wont because it cant be patented.gonna try it out these mood pills they have me on make me whant to hug and cuddle everyone I meet,wich would not be bad if everyone else were also feeling that way.LOLthere are a couple here I would like to give these pills to one Is Dave,I would love to see that Hope you see this dave,Walkin up and just bear hugging everybody and sayin I LOVE YOU!!

any way back to reality,I am trying to hold on to my rational thought I get angry and my patience is zero,I have to do something.this Coconut thing seems to be good thing i will find the reserach and link it in this threadfor those that know someone this may benefit or even their selves.ok gotta stay busy will put those links up in a bit.

Ok I am at odds here ,I have come to the conclusion that it has always been me at fault.It seems my whole life I have been at odds with the world,Jobs,relationships Even freindships.I always thought everyone was out to get me,but this whole time it has been me.I mean this has gone on since I can remember with family or anyone My Wife When she was Lucid before the stroke I can only think she lived in denial as to who I really was.Like A stockholm syndrome if you will.I need to get this sorted out in the mainframe as I am coming into a new area of confrontation with myself and my sanity.

I received my Nutiva coconut oil and have been taken it for a few days now I think it is helping,but that is most likely a placebo effect so soon.they say the brain is more powerfull than any super computer that can ever be concieved.I believe that the bain is a mystery unto itself and will never be given the true study it deserves.Not until the people doing the studies change the mode of diagnostics they measure existance by.I am doing this thread as a evidence that I am trying to fix what is wrong with me.Any one is welcome to contribute their thoughts but please be respectfull.

You're not alone. As Dan Rather once said, "courage!"

Yes and I do know how to keep the neggative stuff out too in this like Self pity and depression ,I suffer Chronic deppression by diagnosis but I am on mood elevaters and other happy pills wich is a battle in itself .but I know to not get wrapped up in self pity .A lot of people start the self pity cycle by being symphathetic,and it just blossoms into full blown deppression.there are things to learn when dealing with mental health as a patient.Just as much as A doctor needs to know ,In order to understand the root of a affliction.

At least you are lucid re your problem.

Although there is tremendous change in attitudes to persons with problems
of the mind actual treatment is still not definitive and runs the gamut.

but it has come a long way from electric shock ,but in my opinion it is still primitive.How do I know,I dont

I do have my bad times that is what no one reads,I will see if I can translate that to my posts,mite give somekind of insight and have some type of revealation.

Best of luck Cleon.

you bet,you all help me in some ways,just with the thought provoking stuff,been awile though..I like all y'all and could just squeeze you all in a bear hug,LOL

It is often a long struggle. What often helps is for you and others around to
note what works for you and what aggravates the problem. Perceptive,
kind and resilient persons in your environ are a boon.

Right now the agravation is coming from the power supply and amplifers,why there are so many frigin variations ,I think maybe some one sould have taken Edison out and left Tesla with his DC current,Just Sayin..

Hmmm...is there a way to make DC speakers?

Acoustic energy is AC. Tesla was the AC advocate, Edison DC.

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I think you should post in this thread daily. Kind of a diary to look back on when you want.

That just shows how gone I am I would have sworn tesla was the Dc Guy,I saw the history channel thing on the early industrialists ,Cant remember the name of series.

Please can we all within this thread act like we are at AK?

Im not finger pointing just treat it like it's AK policy.

Yea thats It. ok I will do that.

The Men That Built America.

You can watch it here
http://www.history.com/shows/men-who...america/videos

Pets are a must for you.:D

http://www.katzy.dsl.pipex.com/Smileys/catwalk.gif http://www.katzy.dsl.pipex.com/Smileys/Dog-10.gif

I can understand all the different voltafes and output formulas for ferent types of amplifiers but I wish it was a little less confusing.I look at the face value of electricity but it is not face value any more once Capaciters and resisters come int to picture and math,well you see how bad my literary skills are math is non existant to me.

yea.thats it

The Men That Built America.

I edited the post, my mistake.

Uh,no they are not,when I was a kid yes but now My wife is the animal nut and I am the zookeeper,I tolerate em for her sake,What she wants she gets.there is a song by the fine young cannibles that describes my wife to me,can you geuss it.Were is TJ at when you need a youtube intervention.

Ok another Day in Paradise,Got a lot solved yesterday as far as my Power supply questions.Wife is at School/Daycare it gives us both respite time.She is really a dynamo of energy and doesnt stop.me I am on the other end of the spectrum,well for the moment anyway.going to attempt some basic organizing today lots of tools and electronics parts everywere,I need a work area,usualy I just take my work out on the porch.my mind is doing good today have not forgoten anything yet and no mind blanks.I am a neat freakon the inside and a slob in reality I am working on that one too.well I will type in some more boring stuff later I am going to attempt some things.

Well I am feeling good today,taking the oil on a rgular basis.also started back on the white chia seeds(not the same as the chia pet ones).the thing is nutrition is the key to a lot of health issues.I am trying to get these doctors out of my life,these SOB's will kill you if you give them a chance.I havent been angry with my Wife 2 days now that is good.whenever I get my oxygen up and blood count back to normal I am going to break out the Schwinn,got it new 10 years ago,never rode it.

only thing about feeling like this is,what is waiting around the corner,gotta stay possitive and just think whatever it is I will take care of it.ok so much to do today gotta get going.

Have you a safe bike path nearby?

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yea we have 2 that run the length of the city about 5 miles east to west,dedicated path.

also gonna get into junkin I have salvaged some nice stuff lately a couple nice speaker cabinents no name real walnut vaneer.a couple recievers I gutted for the transformers and all the connectors and hardware.If I could start all over I think I would be A junk man.

End of the day Not much bad today,feeling decent still no arguements or anger in 2 days,pretty good.Got the TDA7498 Dclass amp today gotta solder the spek terminals tomorrow just listening with gators cliped on at the moment,It is a beautful sounding amp with power to spare,when they sent it all pots were at 100% when I turned the music on the cat jumped a good 8 feet in the air.THey are lucky nothing got fried on my L710's Or they would not get a chance to have a cold war,I would have my Bud Barack Nuke there asses,ok I am signing off gotta go watch Frank Underwood in action.,,Manyana

May I say Cleon instead of one1 please?

Cleon consider this forum as a community that is ready to share your health problems. Since I started to follow your thread I keep my fingers crossed that things are okay for you as far as possible.

Chris

Chris I would Hope You Use my Name,As You I Use Yours,Yes I Am Doing betterOr at least I think I am.I realley Believe in Mind/Body Medicine,Most Doctors still do not though.But life in general is lived around rhe way we feel so I will take feeling good wether it is placebo or real any day.I started this thread as a type of Journal for my progress for me to reflect back on and share my Journy with everyone here,It just might help someone else that is less furthcoming than me(yes I have AYapper on me and don't know when to shut it)Anyway here it is.

Ok just got back From Wally world ,Picked up some supplies.pretty good trip did not have my post shopping parking lot deppresion this time.Was a good trip I still dont have the energy level I need,I need to stop and lean on sometihng for a few I like the grocery section I can lean on the meat bunkers and the cool air is nice.I think once I get my c pap machine and Oxygen that just increase my energy levels.I am loving my new amp it is the TDA 7498 chip from texas instruments,here is a link http://www.audiokarma.org/forums/sho...d.php?t=594726 it is more pleasent than I expected.gonna get some electric Miles on and let the boys give my speakers a workout.I particulary Like AL foster on Drums ,Marcus Miller on Bass Robert Irving on The keyboard N=and Kenny Garret on sax. Oh Yea Miles Davis on Trumpet. ,That it for now maybe some more later.

There is such a deep connection between body and mind. If I would not have discovered Mindfulness Meditation in 2002 I would have passed away long ago in a mental institution. I am nothing without my daily meditation.

I tried the meditation thing,I just fall asleep,my attention span is nill.but If you can call when I sit here at the desk and go into What I call like a trance,ti gets weird,Yesterday I found myself and another self both trying to stand up when I was struggling to get back to consiousness,it was kinda weird.In a crazy Way I believe all that tibetan stuff astral travel and leaving the body,now the reincarnation I am 98% sure it is not.

I would like to teleport and See if I can Get George W. to shit his pants.Probally why I cant cause I would abuse the power.

I do not believe in reincarnation. Belief anyway is a strange thing. It sounds to me as if a believer, whatever in what he believes is not 100% convinced of.

I am convinced of the very present. That's my "belief". Cleon the "Here and Now" is the only realistic place. Do not fear the future, do not lament about the past, just be. This may sound banal, but at last it is very helpful.

hey it hit me when I read it back,you are right.believe is not the way to say it,Not sure could that work or just open not decided either way.because ther is a small doubt.I know it is all in or all out no medium,But in some cases???

A belief should be 100%,so how do you do the doubts.or not sures.

What I tried to express is the interesting difference between belief and conviction.

In my opinion "I am convinced of..." is much stronger than "I believe in..." but this is not important here and such stuff is not topic of your thread.

I hope for good news about you health situation! :)

Yes.my health is going to get better that much I have 100% Faith,And Thank You for the empowermewnt

Ok,Another Day Same Shit.Not feeling too hot today,I think the Indian council is trying to wait me out on getting my treatments,they said it takes a while for it to go through the apropriate channels(were Have I heard that before).I really think getting the breathing aparatus and the oxygen will be a game changer though.I wish People realy gave a shit and were actualy the great humaniterians they say they are.It is so hard to find Sincere anymore,and yes I am guilty too but I try and catch myself.it is all about what I said when I was discussing being Real.what makes us feel good about ourselves is not always what is and is just a mask to hide reality.

Most people I know have given up on me and think I am gone with the wind,but there is still some juice in this large cavity of Shit and bones.gotta get back to work ,I am forcing myself to be active as much as possible.use me as an example if some of you want to to keep your health and mental faciitys tip top and dont waste it,you never Know when you yourself can be Strricken.

I think today is gonna ba a everything sux day.I just cant find any possitive even though it is all around me.I will try some music it usualy lifts me.Maybe some....LADYS AND GENTLE MAN,THE ROLLING STONES.